Category: Reflections
Short ruminations about personal or wider problems
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Dips
I had a bit of a moment today. In the late afternoon after I finished work. Everything felt very down. Suddenly I doubted my position, my friendships, myself, my work. Sort of the opposite of a euphoric moment. A moment of helplessness, and I wouldn’t say despair, but certainly a feeling of absence or emptiness?…
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Good coffee
Is good coffee better than bad? A bit of a philosophical question today. Our lives are made-up of experiences. We pay attention to some of them, less attention to others. There are things which happen right in front of us which we don’t even notice. There are things that don’t happen in front of us…
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Advisors
On the one hand I am reasonably competent. I am taking on a series of jobs and activities around the house and garden which are both novel to me and reasonably challenging and require some tools and effort and thinking. On the other, I don’t feel very organised at all. When my friend D visits,…
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Unreal
Every now and then I remind myself that the structure of a week is completely artificial. Weeks have beginnings, and middles, and ends because we assign those things to them. When you wake up on a Monday morning and you’re not excited about it, the day itself is very similar to the previous day and…
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Consistency
Part of the reason I’m writing these little journal entries is because I’m curious about what other people think and how their lives go. My diligence, consistency and effort comes and goes in waves. There are days when I wake up and I clean and I organise and I cook healthy food and I work…
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Company
Much of the time I feel very comfortable in my own company. I wake up in the mornings and I make coffee, I sit by the window and I drink it thinking about the things I’m going to do during the day. I make scrambled eggs and I eat them quietly while I think about…